mother

Sometimes I worry that I am not a good mother and think I never had a mother so how can I be a good mother? I miss my mother and wish I could have one last converstation with her telling her everything that I have thought about telling her my whole life. I wish I could of known her better. It breaks my heart that I can't think of her voice or the way she walked or her smile....Nothing. When I think of her a blankiness comes into my mind..There is nothing.