Breaking up is hard to do

Lyndley is moving out....It hasn't been this huge drama and it hasn't just gone quietly into the night either. I am unsure on how I feel about the whole thing.
This is how it started about the same time that we moved into our new place she found herself this new boyfriend. I really know nothing about him since I only met him once. Since they started dating she has spent every single moment of her time with him. She has only been here a few days since moving here. The month of April she didn't sleep here once. It has been a hard transition I feel like I am losing my best friend. She and I spent a lot time together and now that is gone...I feel used like she was only my friend cause she had no one else to hang out with. That hurts. It hurts me that she doesn't spend any time with the boys and they ask about her and ask to see her.

She is supposed to be out the first of July. It will be weird. I wonder how we will ever see her when we don't now and she still lives here....We had this little group of family that we had built and it is breaking...This is how it must feel when your children go off to college....

I hate the bank!

So when we moved I ordered new checks from the bank. They get here finally after being delayed by a month! I write all our bills out and mail them not thinking anything. Get a call from the bank today informing me that they had to reject all my check cause the wrong account number was on the checks...That means my rent "bounced". So embarrassing....I had to call our landlord and explain to her the whole situation, luckily she laughed and told me to bring her the money by Monday and is nice enough to not charge us any fees and will still let us write rent checks. But now I have to deal with the 10 other people I wrote checks too!!!

Thank you Nanci Griffith

I want a simple life
Like my mother
One true love for my older years
I don’t want your wars
To take my children
I want a simple life…while I’m here
The sun and moon walk hand in hand together
Trading places shining on the truth
The moon moves the bottoms of the oceans
So, the sun can bring a farmer’s hands to you
We all seek comfort in the light of day
And our tears can wash off in the rainEverything we need is all around us
In simple time and simple ways
Mother nature talks
Whispering her thoughts
So the paths we choose to cross
Walk one more day

"She's gone with the man in the long black coat"

I haven't spoken to Corrina since we had that big huge fight and she opened her mouth and I had to open my back. Sunday is her birthday and she turns 21. Wow! It seems unreal that she is turning 21. My heart breaks for her. Where is she in life? Where is she going? She has no real support. She is lost in the wind and has no hopes, dreams, wishes, or wants. Makes me sad. This is someone that I shared my childhood with. This is someone who knew my dreams before anyone else. She knows my story. And I know hers. Ours are written within each other. We played for hours riding bikes, pretending, just being kids. Now that is all gone and she isn't that person. Hell I guess I am not either. If I could go back in time just one day from when we were kids and see us again so full of hope and love not knowing that there were people in this world that would hurt us and that one day we would grow up and be alone. I would go back to that day at the fair when we were both scared on the ride, but still laughing and making each other smile making up songs to sing on the rides. Being kids so full of innocence. That is the day I would go back and see us at. Before the fire. Before boys, Before my grandma was gone. Before life. I do miss her and I do love her but there is nothing I can do to change anything.