"She's gone with the man in the long black coat"

I haven't spoken to Corrina since we had that big huge fight and she opened her mouth and I had to open my back. Sunday is her birthday and she turns 21. Wow! It seems unreal that she is turning 21. My heart breaks for her. Where is she in life? Where is she going? She has no real support. She is lost in the wind and has no hopes, dreams, wishes, or wants. Makes me sad. This is someone that I shared my childhood with. This is someone who knew my dreams before anyone else. She knows my story. And I know hers. Ours are written within each other. We played for hours riding bikes, pretending, just being kids. Now that is all gone and she isn't that person. Hell I guess I am not either. If I could go back in time just one day from when we were kids and see us again so full of hope and love not knowing that there were people in this world that would hurt us and that one day we would grow up and be alone. I would go back to that day at the fair when we were both scared on the ride, but still laughing and making each other smile making up songs to sing on the rides. Being kids so full of innocence. That is the day I would go back and see us at. Before the fire. Before boys, Before my grandma was gone. Before life. I do miss her and I do love her but there is nothing I can do to change anything.