Blowing in the wind

So this past Tuesday I cut my babies hair and I am heart broken. The little baby fluff of curls are gone. I am hoping not forever and that when it grows it still grows curly. I didn't want to cut them off but the hairdresser did by "mistake". The difference is night and day, he looks so grown up. My baby is gone and there is a toddler in front of me. It makes me feel just simply sad. It makes me miss the little baby that he was and makes me want another baby so bad. Then last night, at Bay's company holiday party, I was asked if we were going to have any more kids and I went on for 10 minutes how I would love to have another one right now but the timing is not right blah blah blah. Hearing me say this some what upset me and I thought is there ever a right time to have a baby? Is anything ever picture perfect when you have a baby? No...things are always confusing, hard, lonely, scary, fulfilling, and the best reason blissful.

I have to brag about my darling hubby, Bailey. I am such a lucky girl to have found him. He is truly my perfect match...We have such a connection, such a draw to be with each other. To have him around me makes me so happy and I count down the time until I get to see him when he is at work. I wish we had tons of money so he didn't have to work so we could be together everyday. Last night I had way too much to drink at his company's dinner. Well it was more the after party at the bar down the street with just a few friends from work. And I drank! I get sick on the way home and puke with my head out the window. It was gross. He carried me in and helped me shower before sending me to bed. I woke up this working still all groggy and yucky!!! It really sucked!!! Bay took the boys to the Chiropractor with him and I asked him to get Togo's-cause only that will help my hangover! Not thinking that it was only 830 in the morning and Togo's is NOT open. After an hour and a half I called Bay asking him where he and the boys were, and he tells me that they are waiting for Togo's to open at Twin Pines Park and to go back to bed and sleep!!! I was never MORE in love with him when I hung up.

After re-reading my declaration to the world I noticed that I type SO a lot....Soooo does this mean I say SO a lot when I talk. I removed them all! I will have to pay attention to myself when I am talk to see.